Document it. Tell the truth. Admit it. I have been a failure. A disappointment. It is unfortunate, but I cannot deny it. I have to face the reality. I have to face the facts here. There are reasons. All of them are valid. None of them matter. That is not to say that I am not compassionate with myself because I am now. The time to strike is now. It is all on the line now. I have to transform my life. Right now. I am better than the product I have put out on the field. At the same time, that is the product I have put out on the field. I can do better than that. I am better than this. I am tired of this shit. I am tired of this. I am so goddamn angry, I am actually pissed. I cannot believe this shit.