Despite it all, I will. Despite the times I no longer wanted to fucking live, I am still standing here. Transitioning is some wild shit to write about. Transitioning is some wild shit to live about. Everything changes. Your entire world is completely upended in an instant. Went from having friends all around the country to being afraid to exit the front door. Had to efface myself. Had to face every demon. Everything that goes bump in the night comes to light. Had to make amends. A lot of apologizes. A lot of, I am terribly sorry. There is more work to do. The people that stayed in my life deserve the entire world and better believe they will receive it.